ami konovabei adjust korte partesina eteer shathe. o already amake onek shock dise mentally ami london theke deshe back korar por theke. amake shobar kache choto korse, bodnam korse, shobar shamne amar shathe baje vabe kotha bolse, 1bar paracetamol kheye suicide attempt nise....r goto kal amake etao bollo je amar mentality naki onek nichu maner. o onek adhunik r ami puran dhan dharona niye achi. ajkal naki wife mane r husband er kotha shuna ba mon rokkha korar bapar nai, ajkal shobai shadhin r keu kauke ja korte jai, ta te mana kora jabe na.
goto kichudin dhore ami oke bole ashtesilam or babar bari(jatrabari) beraye ashte 3diner jonno.goto 2din age o amake bollo je 5din thakle amar apotti ache ki na. ami bollam 5din thakle tumi 1-2din age jao, then amar shathe chole aisho 5din pore. but hartal er karone o 5din match korte partesilona, 4din hochchilo tai o bollo na, ami jeno oke rekhe chole ashi. ami oke bujhaye bollam je eta ami like korina. but erpor o r amar shathe normal achoron kore nai goto 3din. amar shathe 1room e thaktese, 1 bichanai ghumachche but amar shathe kono kotha bola ba amar kachakachio thakche na.
eije baparta, eta ajke notun na. ami biyer por thekei dekhe ashtesi eta. o prochondo egoshomponnno 1ta meye. r prochondo ghar tera type. o kauke care kore na even amake mukher upor etao bole dise je amar proti or respect naki onek agei chole geche. shotti kotha bolte ami oke ghrina feel korte shuru korsi or attitude er karone. ami jani na amar ki kora uchit but ami asholei oke r feel kortesina r prochondo ekakitter koshto vog kortesi......
ami gotokal shararat ghumainai, 6.30 ta porjonto jege chilam, ghumate parinai mon eto kharap chilo.....but etee kintu khub aram kore ghumaise. same bapar ajkeo. o khub aram kore ghumachche but ami ghumate partesina. othocho shokale amar office chilo gotokal, ajkeo ache. shorirtao kharap hoye portese.
Allah jei porikkhai amake felse, shei porikkhai pasher upai ki, ta ami jani na. but ami mentally venge porsi. bashai show kortesi ami thik achi but ashole ami ekdom valo nai. ghorer bou jokhon shotrur moto achoron kore, tokhon r ki kichu valo lage???
etee jodi amar shathe normal jhogra korto, amar kharap lagtona totota but amar proti or kono feelings ba respect nai, sheta ami or ghumonto shorir dekhe bujhte partesi. janina allah ashole ki chai. ... jani na, ei eteer shathei amake whole life katate hobe naki kono 1 din etee loyal hobe amar proti naki baki life ta eka othoba onno kono meyeke niye katate hobe....jani na janina.....shudhu eituk jani je ami manusher moddhe jei jinishgulo hate kori, eteer moddhe shegulo ache....amar shathe mukhe mukhe torko kora, beyadobi kora, mittha bola onek boro dhoronero, amake shobar chokhe choto banano.....egulo or kache kono bapar na.
gotokal o amar shathe jhogra korar jonno thash kore dorja 2ta bondho korse amader roomer....othocho shekhane ammu boshe ache.....kotota beyadob hoile emon kaj korte pare 1ta meye!!!!
Allah er kache shudhu etuk chai je uni jeno amar proti doya koren. jei manusher wife husbandke porwa kore na, shei familyte kokhonoi shukh ashena....Allah amake ei ovishap theke bachao.
3.28PM; 07 Nov'13
goto kichudin dhore ami oke bole ashtesilam or babar bari(jatrabari) beraye ashte 3diner jonno.goto 2din age o amake bollo je 5din thakle amar apotti ache ki na. ami bollam 5din thakle tumi 1-2din age jao, then amar shathe chole aisho 5din pore. but hartal er karone o 5din match korte partesilona, 4din hochchilo tai o bollo na, ami jeno oke rekhe chole ashi. ami oke bujhaye bollam je eta ami like korina. but erpor o r amar shathe normal achoron kore nai goto 3din. amar shathe 1room e thaktese, 1 bichanai ghumachche but amar shathe kono kotha bola ba amar kachakachio thakche na.
eije baparta, eta ajke notun na. ami biyer por thekei dekhe ashtesi eta. o prochondo egoshomponnno 1ta meye. r prochondo ghar tera type. o kauke care kore na even amake mukher upor etao bole dise je amar proti or respect naki onek agei chole geche. shotti kotha bolte ami oke ghrina feel korte shuru korsi or attitude er karone. ami jani na amar ki kora uchit but ami asholei oke r feel kortesina r prochondo ekakitter koshto vog kortesi......
ami gotokal shararat ghumainai, 6.30 ta porjonto jege chilam, ghumate parinai mon eto kharap chilo.....but etee kintu khub aram kore ghumaise. same bapar ajkeo. o khub aram kore ghumachche but ami ghumate partesina. othocho shokale amar office chilo gotokal, ajkeo ache. shorirtao kharap hoye portese.
Allah jei porikkhai amake felse, shei porikkhai pasher upai ki, ta ami jani na. but ami mentally venge porsi. bashai show kortesi ami thik achi but ashole ami ekdom valo nai. ghorer bou jokhon shotrur moto achoron kore, tokhon r ki kichu valo lage???
etee jodi amar shathe normal jhogra korto, amar kharap lagtona totota but amar proti or kono feelings ba respect nai, sheta ami or ghumonto shorir dekhe bujhte partesi. janina allah ashole ki chai. ... jani na, ei eteer shathei amake whole life katate hobe naki kono 1 din etee loyal hobe amar proti naki baki life ta eka othoba onno kono meyeke niye katate hobe....jani na janina.....shudhu eituk jani je ami manusher moddhe jei jinishgulo hate kori, eteer moddhe shegulo ache....amar shathe mukhe mukhe torko kora, beyadobi kora, mittha bola onek boro dhoronero, amake shobar chokhe choto banano.....egulo or kache kono bapar na.
gotokal o amar shathe jhogra korar jonno thash kore dorja 2ta bondho korse amader roomer....othocho shekhane ammu boshe ache.....kotota beyadob hoile emon kaj korte pare 1ta meye!!!!
Allah er kache shudhu etuk chai je uni jeno amar proti doya koren. jei manusher wife husbandke porwa kore na, shei familyte kokhonoi shukh ashena....Allah amake ei ovishap theke bachao.
3.28PM; 07 Nov'13
